I do love Harry Duffin for including this in the book - Bray’s constant ambiguity if he should stay or leave. There are other examples on it too and this is probably the reason why in the series, he got so defensive if anyone accused him of leaving, he did think about it a lot, at least in the beginning.
He was 16, Trudy’s baby wasn’t even his and he had taken respinsibility for them. Of course he wanted to take the load off and run away.
"It was hard to believe they were living in hell."